May 12, 2016
Mar 15, 2016
The Answer to many things
today I found out an answer to many things that has been happening lately..
Am having mixed emotions right now.. tak sure sedih ke lega
but now all the puzzle can be placed..
why my supply has dropped...
why I have been sleepy.. thought it was due to the Amani's has been sick for the past several week..
the giddiness
the muscle pain
the stomach ache
I remembered several months ago I felt as if it was a yes.. but then he reassured me it was no..
the reading was 43000.. hence mu gut was right previously
has been comforting others around me who has experienced it before..
now it is my turn to be mentally prepare for all of the possibilities..
Am having mixed emotions right now.. tak sure sedih ke lega
but now all the puzzle can be placed..
why my supply has dropped...
why I have been sleepy.. thought it was due to the Amani's has been sick for the past several week..
the giddiness
the muscle pain
the stomach ache
I remembered several months ago I felt as if it was a yes.. but then he reassured me it was no..
the reading was 43000.. hence mu gut was right previously
has been comforting others around me who has experienced it before..
now it is my turn to be mentally prepare for all of the possibilities..
Feb 11, 2016
Rezeki comes in many ways :)
Just had to blog about this.
My parents are going to Kedah today so as working children it is our due responsibility to give them some cash for their expenses.
This month's budget had burst (due to my impulse shopping habit and lots of long weekends ) so I had little cash in hand.
Put aside several hundreds for them and had about RM50 in hand. When we reached home parents were not well so we went back out to get some meds. So now my cash in hand was rm 20.
Today, a collegue from another divison text to say she needed to see us . Unexpectedly she brought lunch for too . No words can expressed how overwhelmed I felt.
Yes I have a husband and yes I am working.
But there will be times when money is really tight and I dont usually ask from him unless he gives it to me since I too am working and he has already have his own set of expenses to worry about.
Alhamdullillah..
My sister said " Membantu parents tiada hijabnya"
Feb 2, 2016
Counting days..
Unlike last year my definition of counting days was my EDD for my number 2 ...
This year would be moving into our new home. Our little nest..
We have been married since June 2012 and the excitement to be living on our own is just indescribable.
Year 2015 has been really challenging for my husband and his siblings, I as his wife felt their pain as well. It was and still is mentally and physically tiring.
We were lucky that we could "avoid" some of the problems as we were staying with my parents ever since Adeeba was born.
Now all our free time is spent on browsing for home ideas. We will get all excited and sharing so many ideas but when we get the quotes we will take a deep breath and take a pause..hahaha..
things are sooooo expensive..
Both Aiman and I are the type that wants a rare and unique things. Hence the price...But since its our first home and we basically is starting with zero we need to stick with our budget and still get what we want.
"Browsing", "Surveying" and "Quotation" phase is taking longer than expected. Only one part of our home is settled. The kitchen design and its appliances.
The rest masih in progress...
No Money No Talk :P
This year would be moving into our new home. Our little nest..
We have been married since June 2012 and the excitement to be living on our own is just indescribable.
Year 2015 has been really challenging for my husband and his siblings, I as his wife felt their pain as well. It was and still is mentally and physically tiring.
We were lucky that we could "avoid" some of the problems as we were staying with my parents ever since Adeeba was born.
Now all our free time is spent on browsing for home ideas. We will get all excited and sharing so many ideas but when we get the quotes we will take a deep breath and take a pause..hahaha..
things are sooooo expensive..
Both Aiman and I are the type that wants a rare and unique things. Hence the price...But since its our first home and we basically is starting with zero we need to stick with our budget and still get what we want.
"Browsing", "Surveying" and "Quotation" phase is taking longer than expected. Only one part of our home is settled. The kitchen design and its appliances.
The rest masih in progress...
No Money No Talk :P
Jan 27, 2016
Dec 31, 2015
Sep 2, 2014
one for the album :)
sorry for not updating! last updated last raya.. phewwww..
will update more.. pinky promise!
Mar 18, 2014
Nov 14, 2013
May 15, 2012
jiwa serabut
mom not well.. work hectic as always.. wedding prep..tired mentally and physically
heck! hope mama gets well soon.. cant bare to see her these few days.. semoga dipermudahkan
heck! hope mama gets well soon.. cant bare to see her these few days.. semoga dipermudahkan
Apr 13, 2012
the moment I opt for another option
so they say I should try harder...
but my heart says I should opt for another option..
it's literally eating me up alive..
with the upcoming changes in my life, I don't think there is space for this kind of madness.
I've tried rationalizing it. Discuss about it.
The excitement to wake up every morning ain't there any more.
Finding excuses ain't healthy as well.[somehow there's a lot of excuses happening lately]
I sigh a lot now days
With the wedding prep + unwell parents + crazy madness [that's how I'm defining it]
there's not even an hour I can settle with a peace of mind.
I barely have time with my friends too but my close friends know what I'm going through . But I miss them.
ps: i'll update on other interesting matters soon.. this not so interesting post can be skipped if you like.. eh dah kat hujung2 nie.. camana nak skip yer
but my heart says I should opt for another option..
it's literally eating me up alive..
with the upcoming changes in my life, I don't think there is space for this kind of madness.
I've tried rationalizing it. Discuss about it.
The excitement to wake up every morning ain't there any more.
Finding excuses ain't healthy as well.[somehow there's a lot of excuses happening lately]
I sigh a lot now days
With the wedding prep + unwell parents + crazy madness [that's how I'm defining it]
there's not even an hour I can settle with a peace of mind.
I barely have time with my friends too but my close friends know what I'm going through . But I miss them.
ps: i'll update on other interesting matters soon.. this not so interesting post can be skipped if you like.. eh dah kat hujung2 nie.. camana nak skip yer
Apr 9, 2012
15 Things You Should Give Up To Be Happy
Here is a list of 15 things which, if you give up on them, will make your life a lot easier and much, much happier. We hold on to so many things that cause us a great deal of pain, stress and suffering – and instead of letting them all go, instead of allowing ourselves to be stress free and happy – we cling on to them. Not anymore. Starting today we will give up on all those things that no longer serve us, and we will embrace change. Ready? Here we go:
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?
2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu
3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.
4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle
5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle
6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.
7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.
9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell
10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt
12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.
13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.
credits to :http://www.purposefairy.com
1. Give up your need to always be right. There are so many of us who can’t stand the idea of being wrong – wanting to always be right – even at the risk of ending great relationships or causing a great deal of stress and pain, for us and for others. It’s just not worth it. Whenever you feel the ‘urgent’ need to jump into a fight over who is right and who is wrong, ask yourself this question: “Would I rather be right, or would I rather be kind?” Wayne Dyer. What difference will that make? Is your ego really that big?
2. Give up your need for control. Be willing to give up your need to always control everything that happens to you and around you – situations, events, people, etc. Whether they are loved ones, coworkers, or just strangers you meet on the street – just allow them to be. Allow everything and everyone to be just as they are and you will see how much better will that make you feel.
“By letting it go it all gets done. The world is won by those who let it go. But when you try and try. The world is beyond winning.” Lao Tzu
3. Give up on blame. Give up on your need to blame others for what you have or don’t have, for what you feel or don’t feel. Stop giving your powers away and start taking responsibility for your life.
4. Give up your self-defeating self-talk. Oh my. How many people are hurting themselves because of their negative, polluted and repetitive self-defeating mindset? Don’t believe everything that your mind is telling you – especially if it’s negative and self-defeating. You are better than that.
“The mind is a superb instrument if used rightly. Used wrongly, however, it becomes very destructive.” Eckhart Tolle
5. Give up your limiting beliefs about what you can or cannot do, about what is possible or impossible. From now on, you are no longer going to allow your limiting beliefs to keep you stuck in the wrong place. Spread your wings and fly!
“A belief is not an idea held by the mind, it is an idea that holds the mind” Elly Roselle
6. Give up complaining. Give up your constant need to complain about those many, many, maaany things – people, situations, events that make you unhappy, sad and depressed. Nobody can make you unhappy, no situation can make you sad or miserable unless you allow it to. It’s not the situation that triggers those feelings in you, but how you choose to look at it. Never underestimate the power of positive thinking.
7. Give up the luxury of criticism. Give up your need to criticize things, events or people that are different than you. We are all different, yet we are all the same. We all want to be happy, we all want to love and be loved and we all want to be understood. We all want something, and something is wished by us all.
8. Give up your need to impress others. Stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not just to make others like you. It doesn’t work this way. The moment you stop trying so hard to be something that you’re not, the moment you take of all your masks, the moment you accept and embrace the real you, you will find people will be drawn to you, effortlessly.
9. Give up your resistance to change. Change is good. Change will help you move from A to B. Change will help you make improvements in your life and also the lives of those around you. Follow your bliss, embrace change – don’t resist it.
“Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors for you where there were only walls” Joseph Campbell
10. Give up labels. Stop labeling those things, people or events that you don’t understand as being weird or different and try opening your mind, little by little. Minds only work when open. “The highest form of ignorance is when you reject something you don’t know anything about.” Wayne Dyer
11. Give up on your fears. Fear is just an illusion, it doesn’t exist – you created it. It’s all in your mind. Correct the inside and the outside will fall into place.
“The only thing we have to fear, is fear itself.” Franklin D. Roosevelt
12. Give up your excuses. Send them packing and tell them they’re fired. You no longer need them. A lot of times we limit ourselves because of the many excuses we use. Instead of growing and working on improving ourselves and our lives, we get stuck, lying to ourselves, using all kind of excuses – excuses that 99.9% of the time are not even real.
13. Give up the past. I know, I know. It’s hard. Especially when the past looks so much better than the present and the future looks so frightening, but you have to take into consideration the fact that the present moment is all you have and all you will ever have. The past you are now longing for – the past that you are now dreaming about – was ignored by you when it was present. Stop deluding yourself. Be present in everything you do and enjoy life. After all life is a journey not a destination. Have a clear vision for the future, prepare yourself, but always be present in the now.
14. Give up attachment. This is a concept that, for most of us is so hard to grasp and I have to tell you that it was for me too, (it still is) but it’s not something impossible. You get better and better at with time and practice. The moment you detach yourself from all things, (and that doesn’t mean you give up your love for them – because love and attachment have nothing to do with one another, attachment comes from a place of fear, while love… well, real love is pure, kind, and self less, where there is love there can’t be fear, and because of that, attachment and love cannot coexist) you become so peaceful, so tolerant, so kind, and so serene. You will get to a place where you will be able to understand all things without even trying. A state beyond words.
15. Give up living your life to other people’s expectations. Way too many people are living a life that is not theirs to live. They live their lives according to what others think is best for them, they live their lives according to what their parents think is best for them, to what their friends, their enemies and their teachers, their government and the media think is best for them. They ignore their inner voice, that inner calling. They are so busy with pleasing everybody, with living up to other people’s expectations, that they lose control over their lives. They forget what makes them happy, what they want, what they need….and eventually they forget about themselves. You have one life – this one right now – you must live it, own it, and especially don’t let other people’s opinions distract you from your path.
credits to :http://www.purposefairy.com
Feb 20, 2012
20th February 2012
Alhamdullillah, Mr Dose and I have been engaged for 3 months and we have about 4 months to go to our big day...
Niesa asked me today hows the wedding prep ?
and my answer was "wedding prep oklah..body prep not so good..lol"
and its true..ever since i twisted my ankle today i only exercised twice..well walking at the shopping mall or jalan TAR doesnt count :P
today my motivation to exercise naik balik after seeing my dad susah payah nak loose the kgs and yet I'm the one who is getting married in several months...
however, to my disappointment 3km on the strider feels like forever..its took me a freaking 21 minutes to complete the 3km.. sedih betul...
naik atas sambung buat sit ups pula...
i want to be the toned, flat tummy, curvy bride and yet I just cant say no to the food.. i love it too much..
i trade keluar dating over exercise at any time ..bila date activity utama adalah makan lagi..hehhe
i really need my mojo back!
so today i made a list of several things that may help me loose several kg and inches...
i also weight myself to ensure i see how heavy i am right now and whether I'm making any progress throughout these upcoming months..
perhaps i should also fast to recover the days i have missed during my red flagged days
i know dah ntah berapa bnyk kali day konon-konon bersemangat nak kurus and yet saya hangat-hangat tahi ayam!
hope this time around i will be more motivated and leh tahan nafsu sendiri..lebih menyedihkan ,my inches dah naik since i last measured for my wedding dress...
my dressmaker pun sudah suruh diet since my wedding dress is in progress.. tak muat siap!
dear badminton friends! lets continue our usual sessions!
my jogging partner, sila jangan ajak saya elsewhere when we already have a date by the "lakeside"
will post a picture of my list later so i need my dear friends to be my personal cop to say no if i disobey my own rules...
xoxo
Niesa asked me today hows the wedding prep ?
and my answer was "wedding prep oklah..body prep not so good..lol"
and its true..ever since i twisted my ankle today i only exercised twice..well walking at the shopping mall or jalan TAR doesnt count :P
today my motivation to exercise naik balik after seeing my dad susah payah nak loose the kgs and yet I'm the one who is getting married in several months...
however, to my disappointment 3km on the strider feels like forever..its took me a freaking 21 minutes to complete the 3km.. sedih betul...
naik atas sambung buat sit ups pula...
i want to be the toned, flat tummy, curvy bride and yet I just cant say no to the food.. i love it too much..
i trade keluar dating over exercise at any time ..bila date activity utama adalah makan lagi..hehhe
i really need my mojo back!
so today i made a list of several things that may help me loose several kg and inches...
i also weight myself to ensure i see how heavy i am right now and whether I'm making any progress throughout these upcoming months..
perhaps i should also fast to recover the days i have missed during my red flagged days
i know dah ntah berapa bnyk kali day konon-konon bersemangat nak kurus and yet saya hangat-hangat tahi ayam!
hope this time around i will be more motivated and leh tahan nafsu sendiri..lebih menyedihkan ,my inches dah naik since i last measured for my wedding dress...
my dressmaker pun sudah suruh diet since my wedding dress is in progress.. tak muat siap!
dear badminton friends! lets continue our usual sessions!
my jogging partner, sila jangan ajak saya elsewhere when we already have a date by the "lakeside"
will post a picture of my list later so i need my dear friends to be my personal cop to say no if i disobey my own rules...
xoxo
Feb 19, 2012
Feb 6, 2012
Mode hati kaca
Yes..
When a person is in distress.. Tentulah hati kaca
Kalau orang lain tak paham biarkan mereka..
Other people will never understand what you are going through..
Don't go snapping around like a baby crocodile..
Don't go blamming the "pms".. Sbb bukan musim pms pun kita akan react sama gak
Paling penting.. Don't go blaming others
Go fix or solve whatever things that you're going through..
Because other people akan menjadi mangsa dengan emosi roller coaster itu..
Tgk orang lain diam senyum-senyum doesn't mean they aren't going through some sort of stress in their live.. Its just they are better in controlling their emotions..
Nangis when not in public for instance..
Apa saya bebel ni?
No reason in particular..
Xoxo
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When a person is in distress.. Tentulah hati kaca
Kalau orang lain tak paham biarkan mereka..
Other people will never understand what you are going through..
Don't go snapping around like a baby crocodile..
Don't go blamming the "pms".. Sbb bukan musim pms pun kita akan react sama gak
Paling penting.. Don't go blaming others
Go fix or solve whatever things that you're going through..
Because other people akan menjadi mangsa dengan emosi roller coaster itu..
Tgk orang lain diam senyum-senyum doesn't mean they aren't going through some sort of stress in their live.. Its just they are better in controlling their emotions..
Nangis when not in public for instance..
Apa saya bebel ni?
No reason in particular..
Xoxo
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.
Jan 30, 2012
Bila diriku susah hati..
I eat a lot! When I'm suppose to be on diet..
I get my ankle twisted ..when I should be training for a marathon and at the same time tone up my body..
Its true when they say wedding prep can really eat you up bit by bit..
Crap! That's what I'm feeling right now..
Looking at my company's reports are making me anxious
H.e.c.k.
Looking at my own budgetary for my big day is making me even more anxious..
My mom needs to undergo a minor surgery soon..susah hati lagi..
Everything is tumbled here and there and am hoping for a light at the other side of the road~
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I get my ankle twisted ..when I should be training for a marathon and at the same time tone up my body..
Its true when they say wedding prep can really eat you up bit by bit..
Crap! That's what I'm feeling right now..
Looking at my company's reports are making me anxious
H.e.c.k.
Looking at my own budgetary for my big day is making me even more anxious..
My mom needs to undergo a minor surgery soon..susah hati lagi..
Everything is tumbled here and there and am hoping for a light at the other side of the road~
Sent from my BlackBerry® wireless device via Vodafone-Celcom Mobile.
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